Kara Dreamer ⚧ @[email protected]

#TMITuesday

our presence on other social media is a bit hit and miss. we use Telegram and Discord although we don't quite care for either.

we administer a Discord server devoted to plurality and tulpamancy, "Wonderverse" (ask about it!)

and also a personal Discord server, lightly trafficked, "In the Foothills of Mount Ebott". I'm using it right now to plan an ambitious #Undertale / #StevenUniverse crossover story cycle.

https://discord.gg/QKFcWBq

I have a tiny website up but don't update it

it must have made Alphys frustrated to be offered a big lab job and not able to get one useful bit of information out of Asgore about the position because all real knowledge of it was scattered across the multiverse

#UndertaleHeadcanon

after the accident erases Gaster, nobody can really remember where The Lab came from. they sort of get halfway there and lose the way.

"The Lab? that's for the Royal Scientist! we don't have one right now though, not after what, uh, that thing that happened to, ummm, what was their name... it must have happened a long time ago!"

#UndertaleHeadcanon

Burgerpants's job was actually low stress and not particularly awful and Mettaton barely interacted with him, but Burgerpants detested it anyway because he's never happy with any situation he's stuck in

I want to write about Chara struggling with the jealousy and possessiveness that comes when you've had _nothing_ for so long and then you get your first drink of pure clean water and you wish you could just drink it forever, drink nothing else

I can write about these things, write about these two beautiful people, without worrying about whether they wanna fuck or not

it's not..._needed_

I won't do it.

like, I know what I want to write about, when it comes to Chara and Asriel

I want to write about two very broken and hurting people learning to live with their mistakes

I want to write about Asriel struggling with the personal knowledge that he's capable of hatred, capable of being a killer, fearing that he might once again cause the death of his only close friend

so while I haven't abandoned my notions about writing aged-up Charasriel fiction where they develop a strong _romantic_ relationship, I have decided that the only fitting sort of relationship to write for them is an asexual one

I feel like the best Charasriel writing I've already encountered has this vibe anyway. introducing sex into the relationship seems like...painting the lily, as it were. a bit much

I've run up against the tension in myself that I've decided to try to live with, haha

to respect ideals, and yet also acknowledge temporality and mortality and solid earthy concerns like sex

I have to remember that Asriel is an ideal for a lot of people

he's not an ideal for me. I love Asriel, but I do not idolize him. my Asriel does not want to be idealized, he has suffered too much

but that's just me

and for a while that imaginary future life was one that had sex in it because I'm a sexual being myself. I didn't think it was wrong to indulge in imaginings about an older Chara and an older Asriel figuring out that just maybe, they were sexually attracted as well as just friends

but others do not see it that way, and I have to respect that

I mean, I'm a forty-three year old trans gxrl, struggling with hir own sense of sexuality and gender identity, and I was able to come to grips with that stuff _because_ I was trying to imagine, what would it really be like for Chara and Asriel to be restored to life and growing older

I've spent a slightly ludicrous amount of mental effort trying to _save_ Asriel and Chara and imagine a future life for them

so...I wanna talk about something about difficult pertaining to Undertale, something that excites a lot of harsh words

and that's the whole question of depicting Asriel Dreemurr (_and_ Chara _and_ Frisk) as sexual

I've flirted with the idea myself, because from the very start, I wanted to imagine a _future_ for the Undertale characters. I wanted to place them in time, have them evolve and grow

hu?