there's a phase of my magickal career I don't like talking _too_ much about, mostly because it was so damn long ago now and I'm radically different a person, with a radically different approach to magick
but back in 1999-2001 or so, when I was still in my early 20s, I dabbled in the Seattle neo-pagan scene for a bit. I'd been raised irreligious and went through a hardcore atheist science geek phase, but then I got captivated by classical antiquity
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I wanted to _do_ something about it, more than just daydream from reading Mary Renault books and such, and I had a Wiccan Seattle friend, so I tried to get into paganism that way
it didn't really "take". I'd get a lot more out of it now, I think it was too big a change for me to try to make in myself back in 1999
I've had to hammer away long and hard at my narrow hard-science-geek picture of the world before I was ready to have a place for witchcraft in it
@kara Sometimes you're a weirdo like me, and finding the most obscure and foundational texts you can IS the fun! (I have a problem, I'm a religion hoarder)
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but if I could tell myself one thing back then to try to encourage myself to stick at something that I was doing mostly in some vague hope of finding spirituality...I would try to get myself to have FUN with it, stop trying to approach it like a scholar (I'd gotten a degree in Classics by this point, I should add)
I was obsessed with authenticity & finding sources for everything
but there's no point in doing any religious or spiritual thing if you're not having fun